I don't really know why I feel this way, but I'm starting to really miss my old life. I definately don't miss the way my mom treated me but I miss everything else that used to be normal for me. Most of all I miss my friends. Because of my mom, I didn't see much of them but I saw them at school and I would sneak phone calls to them. They weren't the best relationships on my part, thanks to my mom, but my friends kept me sane.
I also really miss my school and all the people there. At Escondido High School I had this one teacher, from my freshman year, that I was really close to. It's really funny because his name is Mr. Strange. But he was a great teacher and he really helped me a lot as a student and as a person in general.
Like I said, I don't miss the way my mom treated me but I miss her. Regardless of how she made me feel, being around her was normal and routine. Even after almost nine months of being out of her home, I'm still not entirely used to her absence in my life.
I know I sound entirely ungrateful for the life I have now but I'm not. I am perfectly content with the way things are now... I just wouldn't mind if I could incorperate both lives into one, without losing anything. =/
I am sorry to hear this. I know that even if you are not enjoying something it can become comforting because it is the only thing you know. I hope that you start feeling better soon.
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